Saturday, 28 October 2006

Hello, God.

It's been a while, hasn't it?
I cleared off some books today - passed them over to Sam - and in doing so, I found the old prophecies that I wrote down. And (coincidentally?) I finally finished that book Deb bought me. Guess what both were talking about today?
Haha, you don't have to guess, right? Yeah, you know. Faith.

Faith, that old contentious issue.

It's one of those things I
know and yet, I don't know because I just don't get it. Well. It seems clearer now, a little.

Anyway, yeah, faith.

I'll find it.

I'll find you.

Thank you.

Saturday, 14 October 2006

Just Feel Better - Santana

She said I feel stranded
And I can't tell anymore
If I'm coming or I'm going
It's not how I planned it
I've got a key to the door
But it just won't open

And I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
That life happens for a reason
I don't, I don't, I don't
Because it never worked before
But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything to just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way
Girl I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

She said I need you to hold me
I'm a little far from the shore
And I'm afraid of sinking
You're the only one who knows me
And who doesn't ignore
That my soul is weeping

I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
Everything must have a season
Round and round it goes
And every day's the one before
But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything that just feels better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

I can't find my way
God I need a change
And I'd do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

I'm tired of holding on
To all the things I ought to leave behind, yeah
It's really getting old, and
I think I need a little help this time!

Yeah

[Guitar solo]

I'm gonna try anything to just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way
God I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

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It's kind of sad, but this is seeming to be my theme song for the week. But I like the way he sings "
I'm tired of holding on / To all the things I ought to leave behind, yeah / It's really getting old, and
I think I need a little help this time!"

I would have never expected to find this gem of a verse from a Santana song. I didn't even expect this song to be by Santana! I'd heard it on the radio, and liked it but couldn't catch the artist or song title. So I googled it. Using whatever part of the lyrics I could remember.

Meaningful.
For now.

Sir!

Dear Sir,

I would like to tell you how much I respect you. You are bigger and greater than I can imagine. I wouldn't know how else to address you, except "Sir". I suppose it's an honorific that has fallen largely out of use, but it still holds the same amount of love, respect and honour in my heart.
I remember reading in those old story books where children would address their fathers as "Sir", and you are my Father. It is not a word to use lightly, and I hope I do not do so. I would not dishonour you, or your name.
They say your spirit abides with us, Sir, and I would like to thank you for this friend and helper that you have sent to us. I hope to be able to get to know him better, and that he would be able to give me fresh insights into your nature and character.
This will have to be a short letter, Sir.
Until next time,
I remain,

your child.