...You have been provoked much in the faith... you will be one who provokes others... a provocateur... you're so special... When God made you, he threw away the mold... God's put you on a pedestal... it's really not you... but you've become comfortable there... you're wondering what you're doing here...
I don't want to be here.
The pedestal doesn't belong to me. Only to You.
I don't want to be comfortable here.
Why provoke? You know I hate a fight. It makes me upset. It's hard. I don't like it.
I don't understand Your purposes.
And yet, not my will, but Yours be done.