The question is: is it fundamentally a problem with ME, or a problem with the church?
Does everyone, at one point or another, feel that church just isn’t the be-all and end-all of Christian life? What happens if you decide to leave the church? Or change churches?I’ve come to a realisation that I actually do not have anything much to tie me to the church I’m in. I have friends, yes. I have acquaintances. I am involved, certainly. The thing is, I don’t know if it’s a fundamentally “me” problem, or if it’s a problem with the church, that causes me not to really bond or belong. It struck me on Sunday that I could just decide to leave, and not feel any emotional pangs or attachment to where I’ve been all these years. What happened?
The people I’ve grown up with have either moved away (permanently or temporarily) or our friendships have drifted apart somewhat. Then again, we never really had that close a friendship in the first place.
The one main bond I had that identified me strongly with the church I’m in was the fact that I was a PK – one of THE PKs. But now all that’s changed – or rather, is in the state of changing.
And there it is again. That thought. I could now, just leave silently, quietly, disappear. And I doubt I’d feel a thing. They may feel it, for a while. But then it would be nothing personal. It wouldn’t be the loss of a close friend, or a close working relationship. It would be just one less singer. One less worship leader. One less actor for a church that doesn’t do drama anyway.
I might have been sad about leaving the
He says not to forsake the company of the saints and the gathering together. Does it make a difference where you gather? It could be in this church, or another.
Would it seriously make a difference if I went or stayed?
The only holding me back right now is, as always, the responsibilities I have taken upon myself for the things I have committed to do.
But how long can mere responsibility tie me to a place I don’t really feel a part of?
lol..thanks..anna? the anna who drove me to dinner with gerrard?ReplyDelete
yup yup.. correct anna :)ReplyDelete