finish.

and where does your heart lie

that it flies and flutters and wheels around

heading nowhere, somewhere, anywhere

broken.

afraid.

alone.

wishing.

and all you are

is not all you wish to be

and everything

is out of your reach

wash.

rinse.

repeat.

hoping.

but You lived with the end in mind, that on this

broken earth, broken people will destroy You

and You live, knowing that all You are, all You were

will end in one night because of this brokenness

and Your heart breaks because You know there

is no other way, the ransom must be paid

the captives, unworthy as they are, must be free

so You pray, on Your knees, on Your face

willing and hoping that there was another way

but knowing You will do it because love binds You

and justice demands it of You and this is all

and always, Your will be done, is done. It is finished.

how do you deal with death?

it has been six years since you've gone

but I remember, because you live in the digital

and memory

reminds

the words

call out

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust
Life's brief candle, go out it must

It wasn't you sitting in that wooden box
I couldn't see your smile that rocks

Without your laugh, your flesh is false
No, oh no, you're somewhere else

I guess I'm glad you found your rest
Though it's hard to say that God knows best

but why recall 

you now

except that death

is on my mind

life is beautiful

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