I wish I had more to say about Christmas.
But I can't find words.
I feel like I have things to say, but I don't know how to say it.
So for now it will suffice that I have decided to stay, and stay I will.
How do you describe a feeling that has endless words in your mind that won't stay written, thoughts that are jumbled, and yet so clear, ungraspable if there is such a word.
But clarity is needed, clarity in some ways has come but not in everything.
Maybe that is enough for now.