I write this because I don’t feel I truly get it. In my heart, in my belly, Bersih is just a zygote. It’s something important, alive, growing, but it is still nothing more than an unformed pre-baby, and I don’t know if it will live. True, it has survived three rallies, and is growing, but is this what it’s all about? Rally after rally because nothing has changed? Maybe it’s the fault in my brain that needs something firmer to grasp onto, like the way Thern pushes for a minimum three week schedule, but Ben lives from week to week. I understand the need to make a show, to hype up the demands - valid demands, reasonable demands - to make these people listen even though we know that they won’t. I understand that this is the only way to wake us up from our slumber because we are too comfortable, even in the midst of the diminishing of that comfort. I know that pushing this out into the world, onto social media is one of the only ways to make them sit up and take us seriously.
Right now it’s a demonstration, it’s a calling forth of people to arms. But to what arms? This is not a physical fight. It cannot be. It’s a battle of the minds, it’s a battle of the wits, but what battle is there when the words are not right, when the plan is pushed out unformed? So you may win this battle. But what next? What’s to say that anything will ever change? What if the people you hope on right now do not live up to your hopes? What if history repeats itself because we do not yet understand, we do not yet grasp, we do not yet fully know what it is we rise for, what it is we fight for, what it is that really must change?
It’s a certain knowledge, from a few that something needs to change, something needs to happen. And it’s anger from many, because they have been used, they have been duped. The DNA is there, the basic structure, the basic understanding, but it hasn’t been developed. It is the anger of the many that pushes this forward in its unfinished state, but what happens when the anger is abated, distracted, overwhelmed? What if all we are doing now is just an outburst of that anger, and when the jadedness falls into place again, there is no real change?
The question, for me, is always what next? And I can’t see that what next. The opposition is not as clean as they make themselves out to be. They are not as intelligent or wise or better able to govern than the incumbent government. Right now they are a viable option because they are all we have. But what if they turn out to be no better? What if, after all this ruckus about creating clean and fair elections, about cleaning up corruption, we find that they are just as power/money crazy?
Because all I see right now is finger-pointing, allocation of blame. It’s their fault. We were sabotaged.
You have not yet been fully formed.
A zygote (from Greek ζυγωτός zygōtos "joined" or "yoked", from ζυγοῦν zygoun "to join" or "to yoke"), or zygocyte, is the initial cell formed when two gamete cells are joined by means of sexual reproduction. In multicellular organisms, it is the earliest developmental stage of the embryo. In single-celled organisms, the zygote divides to produce offspring, usually through meiosis.
I don't know what to make of all this.
What kind of government do we have that it can be suggested that they planted thugs with the protesters to create violence, and you can actually nod your head and think, true. Very possible.
And what kind of opposition leader is this, who when Bersih was about to be concluded peacefully, was alleged to have spurred on the violent elements to break the barricade and you are able to think with sincerity, BN must have bought him off. Turncoat.
And what kind of integrity is this, that when alleged that Bersih lost control of the crowd at the end blatantly denies it, in the face of the fact that there really was violence? Accuse everyone else all you want, it still happened, planted or not, provoked or not.
Most of all, what kind of nation is this that you really don't know if you can trust the mainstream media or the alternative media or the social media to tell the truth?
Let’s Tell the Main Story of Bersih 3.0
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Xenophon caught up in Malaysia protest - ABC News (Australian Broadcasting Corporation)
Did Bersih walk into BN’s trap? | Free Malaysia Today
Today, my heart breaks a little more.